How to deal with insomnias

[lilar]

I have always suffered of insomnias. I don't really mind insomnias; it's just that the following day I'm always tired.
When I started listening to the audios, I stopped having insomnias but lately they came back. Yesterday, a thunder storm woke me up at 3am and I couldn't go back to sleep. I first released on wanting to change and I was OK with it. Then I welcomed the feelings, sensations, pics and sounds related to insomnias. Then I released on the belief that I had insomnias and last I released on resistance with the following questions : Could you let go of resisting sleeping? Could you let go of resisting not sleeping?
I felt fine i.e. I didn't get aggravated by the fact that I couldn't sleep which in itself helped a lot. But no sleep to be found!
Any clue?

[Mário [Hootless Crew]]

Any clue would be wanting to figure out. It happens to me sometimes (very few times), so I use the time to release. The reason is only one: your mind is active trying to figure something out, even if you consciously don't know what. Trying to find what would only add more WFO to what's already there. So, two suggestions, one Larry and one Hale:
Larry: Let go of disapproving of yourself for not being able to sleep and figure out why you are not slepping. Then give yourself love and approval until you sleep or the alarm-clock rings.
Also, allow yourself to not sleep. Observe how things go as you allow what is already happening to be.
Hale: Just allow the mind to do its figuring whatever out noise party and observe it. Notice you are not it. Are you the noise, or are you that which is aware of the noise?

My suggestion: Goal Chart - I allow myself to sleep deeply with ease/I allow myself to wake up completely rested and refreshed with ease.

Mário

[lilar]

Mario: I will print the instructions and review them before I go to sleep so I can remember them. I will use all of them and see what happens.
Thank you so much!

[lilar]

So this is what happened yesterday:

In the morning, I called my mom to enquire about her health as I had heard that she had the flu, but I found my sister instead and she sounded very secretive which is not her type. Fear came up and I acknowledged it. At the end of the call, I kept asking her what she was hiding from me; I knew something happened and she didn't want to tell me. As I live thousands miles away from my family, they tend to protect me from hearing bad news. I have always been very sensitive when it comes to losing people I know but particularly sensitivesince moving away from from my family. Anyway, I felt my heart racing and told her to tell me who died. She assured me that my mother was healthy, and kept asking me how I felt that something was wrong. Fear escalated as I was sure now that something really bad happened. All this happened while I was completely aware of both my fear and my reaction to it. The phone card ended and she had enough time to ask me to connec on msn to talk with my other sister and hear the news. I didn't connect immediately, an intense fear overwhelmed me. I needed to release. I went upstairs and sat on a chair and allowed the fear to be. It became more intense. My mind went berserk. I have never been in touch with such terrible fear as I was at that time and the reason why is that I usually express it when that happens or even worse suppress it. But this time I chose to face the fear. I can tell you it wasn't easy! For about 5mns, it was almost unbearable. But I kept doing it. I kept asking the questions. I even dove in. And suddenly, fear started to dissolve. I could only sense some sensations but I was not in fear. I went downstairs and connected on msn. I was calm. I even talked about other things and my sister was hesitant in telling me but that didn't cause fear to come up. I was in acceptance. I asked her what happened and she told me that my cousin committed suicide by throwing herself from the 9th floor. As I had released before, I can say that I was so calm that it was me who started saying that she must be in a better place now. My sister who knows how I usually react to shocking news like these was amazed by the calmness in my voice. Two years ago, my cousin's(the one who killed herself) 3 year old nephew died of burns. When I heard the news, I was devastated for a month eventhough I never saw the boy. And now my cousin who of course I knew and was just a few years older than I am kills herself and I feel at peace! Releasing is absolutely extraordinary! It's true that later in the evening, a sadness accompanied me for a couple of hours but that was Ok. That was supposed to be that way. At night, I couldn't sleep. My mind kept wondering why bad things happened to good people. My aunt is one of the nicest women I have ever seen. She is my favorite aunt. She has always had problems. But the worst I think is when her daughter's son got burnt and died and also when his mom tried at least ten times to kill herself and they had to watch her. And now it her other daughter who commits suicide!!! All this thinking lasted about 30 s and then I said to myself "Are you trying to figure it out?" and I instantly let go. But at night, I didn't sleep well. However, a warm feeling swept my body even when I couldn't sleep. It was amazing! I kept releasing and I finally slept. I used both Hale's and Larry's technique and all that releasing took the pressure off me and I could sleep finally.
Today I feel very patient and I also feel a lot of love towards everybody.
That's all. I just wanted to share my experience with releasing when hearing bad news.

[Mário [Hootless Crew]]

Well, that is very good. How you reacted of course. You haven't been doing this for a long time and you already have enough discrimination to handle this type of situation. And you naturally moved for the generally best way to handle overwhelming emotions, which is diving in. Not because it is different, but because it is hard to fromulate and answer questions, or decide to let go when the emotions are already up.

Great gain!
Mário

[Zannie Rose]

so glad to hear that you were able to experience the benefits of releasing in this way, when something so drastic happens in the family system. good for you lilar

[Frank]

Lilar, very moving experience. Thank you for sharing. You're making great strides and you're an inspiration to me.

[Per "djpjgj" [Hootless crew]]

Thanks for sharing, moving, and amazing results from releasing.

[lilar]

Thank you my friends. Releasing has helped me tremendously with this ordeal. Yesterday, I slept very well. No struggling, no pressure, no nothing...

[Frank]

Ahhh... And isn't that how life was meant to be. Effortless...

[Lisa [Hootless Crew]]

I was sorry to read the sad family story Lilar, but you really did so well handling your own emotions over it. No matter how long we have released for, it is sometimes quite hard when caught up in the middle of something to sit and think - release, welcome, dive in etc etc It is as if the mind likes to wallow in the emotions at times......

I used to suffer from insomnia ALOT before I discovered the method. It is a thing of the past now for me too. What I find gets me off to dreamland faster than anything if I am awake and don't wish to be, is listening to Hales 'Beginning and end of day release' audio - I don't know what it is, Hales soft voice etc.... but it puts me to sleep no matter what time of day it is......:)

[lilar]

Thank you Lisa. I still have insomnias when something is going on in my life but the difference is that they don't come with the excess baggage i.e. anxiety, discomfort, anger... etc... and that in itself is a miracle!
Which CD do you refer to? Where do I find "beginning and end of day"? I would love to try it. I agree with you that Hale's voice is very soothing.

[Mário [Hootless Crew]]

It is a separated CD/mp3 set you can by directly from his website.

Mário